Saturday, October 19, 2002

writing a book is fucking hard, i know why Stephen King retired 15 times.

Wednesday, October 16, 2002

.....the naked people are nude and dead people should be killed.

Sunday, October 13, 2002

the song "You Know You're Right" by Nirvana has just taken on a whole new meaning to me.

you spend a good chunk of your life fantasising of that perfect relationship with that perfect girl.and all your hopes and dreams are desroyed with the sudblety of a tower collapsing to the ground with the muttering of some simple words.the specific words may vary from person to person,but the emotion remians the same.a unique blend of disgust,frustation,depresion,anger,and quite surrender.the human heart can only take so much before you become a living Nick Cave song,and i've just learned that today.numbness truly is a neccecity.

i would'nt wish this on my most hated enemies.
i got that feeling in the pit of my it love or gas?hunger pain or emotional pain?

the world..may never care.
my new goal in life is to be the anti-Andrew W.K.

i don't want anyone to have fun or party hard.everyone should sit in black rooms with no windows or pictures on the walls.they should wear sunglasses in these rooms and never smile.they should only drink rusty water from broken sinks .they should'nt listen to any form of music.the only sounds they should hear is the sounds of their skulls caving in all the while jamming ice picks in their ears one should love anything or anyone.everyone should want to live alone and die is not a fucking beer commercial or an ad for Zoloft with the cuddly cartoon character happily chasing a butterfly.Life sucks hard and it's only going to suck harder.pills just make it boring.
i've never been able to sit through "The Godfather" in it's entirety.i always get suckered in by the beautiful music but then i lose intrest after Don Corleone gets shot in the back several times.kind of like life i suppose.

i just started writing what looks to be my first'll probally take me like 5 years to complete,since i have the attention span of a ridalin deprived hyper active six year old in a college algebra class.