Saturday, July 12, 2003

That last post was a queer.

fuckin rabbit....

Friday, July 11, 2003

with freinds like these........

who needs peace of mind and a creative outlet when you can have your very own collection of "freinds", consisting of all of the junkies, whores, potheads, faggots, and boring uncharisamatic nerds you can handle? why have one close freind who would do anything to see you happy when you can have 55+ dirtbags that will use you and discard you when you no longer serve a purpose? you can piss and shit on the one guy whose always been there, but heaven forbid you break your promise to these oh so intresting troglodytes that are just soooooo intresting and cool. they have to be, i mean they SMOKE AND DRINK! WOW what awe inspiring indivtuals!

fuck you. you're not worth the boiling blood and the foam around my mouth. you see everything but you recognize nothing.

you know who you are and what you think you are.

Thursday, July 10, 2003


i just had ketchup on all of the fingers of my right hand.

Sunday, July 06, 2003

people really do take advantage of my good nature.

as bitter and miserable as i am in my writings, in everyday life i try to be as easy going as i possibly can. i bite my tounge, hold back the screams, and with all the strength i can muster resist the urge to punch people square in the jaw. i'm practically a doormat, hoping that maybe people will treat me with just a tad bit of respect.


i blame myself, for not being more assertive. for letting people walk all over me without wiping their feet first. i try not to put myself before others, i really truly do, but this is fucking pathetic. it's pathetic that i allow myself to be treated this way and it's pathetic that people treat the ones who care about them so much with no respect, completely diregarding how much has happend between us.

once again it comes back to the generic apathy that has slowly been rotting away the ideals as well as the ambitions of each generation since the 1970s. it's a nut it the shitball of life.